Groundbreaking Thinker

I tried this personality test on ipersonic.com. It describes how I think and how I do my works. Well, they get almost all of it, I guess. Here it is, just so you can know more about me :)
To save time, the Bold ones describe me the most and the Italic ones somewhat describes me :)

Groundbreaking Thinkers are charming, enthusiastic persons. They really bubble over with energy and like to take centre stage. They love variety both professionally and privately. Groundbreaking Thinkers tackle changes consistently with their optimism and firm belief in their own abilities; they are always on the look-out for improvement possibilities.

As a Groundbreaking Thinker, you are one of the extroverted personality types. Dealing with others, communication, discussions, and a little action are your life’s blood - and some of your strengths. You are very articulate and love variety personally as well professionally. New tasks, new projects, new people, fascinate you because you are always interested to increase your wealth of experience.

Their excellent communication skills are of great advantage to them here. They approach the world with curiosity and openness and master new situations with a great deal of talent for improvising and with resourcefulness. Their spare time is taken up with a large number of hobbies ; most Groundbreaking Thinkers like to travel in order to gather as many different impressions as possible. This personality type is unbeatable at discovering new possibilities.

In their work, Groundbreaking Thinkers highly rate challenges and diversified tasks. They cannot stand routine and too detailed work. They love to astound others with bold ideas for an original, new project and then leave it up to the others to implement them. Hierarchies, rules and regulations arouse their opposition and they love outsmarting the system. It is vital to them that they enjoy their work; if this is the case, they quickly become pure workaholics. Their creativity best takes effect when they work independently; but they are very good at motivating others and infecting them with their optimistic nature. Conceptual or advisory activities appeal especially to Groundbreaking Thinkers. It can happen that some people feel somewhat duped by their flexible, spontaneous nature.

Their sociability and enterprise ensure that Groundbreaking Thinkers always have a large circle of friends and acquaintances in which activity plays an important role. As they are mostly in a good mood, they are popular and very welcome guests. Grumbling and peevishness are unknown to them. However, they do tend to be a little erratic and unstable when it comes to obligations and this makes them appear to be unreliable to some. Groundbreaking Thinkers are very criticaland demanding when it comes to picking a partner because they look for the ideal relationship and have a very concrete picture of this ideal relationship. Mutual aims in life are very important to them. They do not like compromising and would rather remain alone. For the partner, it is often a challenge to have a long-term relationship with a Groundbreaking Thinker. Groundbreaking Thinkers need a lot of space and diversity or otherwise they become bored and feel cramped. Types who are rather more traditionalistic often have problems with the willingness of Groundbreaking Thinkers to take risks and their often crazy, spontaneous actions. However, if one can summon up sufficient flexibility and tolerance for them, one will never be bored in their presence and will always have a loyal and faithful partner. 

Adjectives that describe your type

extroverted, theoretical, logical, spontaneous, rational, innovative, intellectual, open, independent, curious, enterprising, analytical, clever, enthusiastic, venturesome, inventive, energetic, sociable, optimistic, non-conformist, creative, freedom-loving, charming, able to get enthusiastic, self-confident, communicative, capricious, inconsistent, outgoing

Date A Diplomat's Daughter

Date a diplomat's daughter. She values all the available time at her best because she knows there will be a time that she'll leave to another place. She has various idea to plan every moment and yet still be flexible as the leaving time is unpredictable and keep changing in the very last minute. Being together is all she's ever wanted. Simple. 

Date a diplomat's daughter. Since she moves to a new place at least every 3 years, it makes her easy to be friend with. You always have enough time to tell her anything and she'll always ready to listen. Simply because she knows when to speak and to listen as her parents taught her how to behave in diplomatic way. She's also always look at different point of view of something, since different countries have different ways of saying things. So, to fight is not her thing. She may want to argue or debate just to find out why and how out of her curiosity. 

Date a diplomat's daughter. You won't find any hard time to adjust. Give her anything, take her anywhere and she will accept and appreciate everything without complaining as she's been through every possible situation. Better yet, she's very into an adventure, surprise her. You can also talk almost everything with her. Being in foreign countries broadens her knowledge world-widely - economy, politic, law, culture, language - you name it.

Date a diplomat's daughter. She knows how to handle herself and people around her. Trying to live and survive in a new country, makes her able to take care of everything - household problems included. Although she's been through a lot, she still manages to look strong and happy. Because of this, she grows up quickly, becomes more mature and able to adapt fast.

Date a diplomat's daughter. She has strong moral values to hold on into. As environment and friends are changing, she needs a solid ground to keep her in the right path. You can always rely on her and never get disappointed.

Date a diplomat's daughter. It may be hard to keep relationship in a distance, but once she chooses you, she believes that it will works. Since she moves frequently, she only get a chance to trust a few people. If you're the one that she trusts, keep it; or else you'll never get it back.

Note: It only applies when the daughter moves together with her parents after - at least - 2 different foreign countries.

Kuesioner

Aku liat temenku ngeluh karena ngisi kuesioner lagi. Sedih ngeliatnya.

Karena bagi jurusan social science, kuesioner itu amat sangat berharga. Tapi jurusan lain kebanyakan ngga melihat value kuesioner tsb.

Oleh karena itu aku nge-post ini. Berharap teman2 di jurusan non-social science bisa menghargai kuesioner dan mengisinya dengan sepenuh hati.

1. FYI, untuk satu published journal paper di bidang social science khususnya di bidang consumer behavior dan marketing, mereka punya sekitar 3-7 studies. 

Studies itu berbagai macam teknik atau cara dalam menyelesaikan 1 topik. Misal: papernya ttg kepuasan pekerja. Study 1 aku mau liat kepuasan pekerja setelah gaji naik, study 2 aku mau liat kepuasan pekerja setelah gaji naik, tetapi tergantung dgn berapa pengeluaran dia sebulan, dan seterusnya. Kita dituntut utk melakukan modifikasi yang masih didalam satu topik agar satu paper punya kontribusi yang banyak.

2. Satu study harus buat satu kuesioner.

Dalam satu study, minimal ada 2 faktor (Independent dan Moderator/Mediation), 1 faktor minimal ada 2 level. Satu level, minimal harus ada 30 responden. Jadi, kalo 1 study ada 2 faktor = 4 level = 4x30 = 120 responden. Itu baru SATU study. Sedangkan, idealnya dalam 1 paper, respondennya ngga boleh dobel. Jadi klo 1 paper ada 3 study, dgn asumsi jumlah faktornya sama, dibutuhkan 3x120 = 360 responden yang BERBEDA.

3. Pre-test

Sebelum sebar kuesioner yang sebenarnya, kita butuh pre-test untuk menentukan item-item yang akan digunakan dalam kuesioner. Jumlah respondennya cenderung lebih sedikit (minimal 30-40 responden), tetapi, kita harus mencari responden yang BERBEDA juga.

Udah kebayang belum, betapa susahnya mahasiswa jurusan social science mencari responden utk kuesionernya?

Untuk jurusan lain, kalian butuh program atau bahan-bahan yang harus diuji. Semua itu benda mati yang bisa kalian uji coba kapan saja. Ngga ada perasaan jadi ngga rewel dan kalian ngga usah merasa sungkan karena mengganggu waktunya.

Nah untuk social science, kita butuh manusia untuk diuji coba. Manusia dengan segala ke-kompleks-annya.

4. Kalo gagal?

Anak social science bikin ulang kuesioner, sebar pretest lagi, sebar kuesioner lagi (yang pastinya orangnya beda lagi).

Kita tau kok, banyak yang malas utk isi kuesioner. Aku pun bingung nyari responden. Aku butuh banyak responden, karena syaratku utk lulus itu harus 2 papers, dengan 4 studies tiap papernya. Jadi butuh berapa responden? simply, banyak.

Hampir semua keluhan mahasiswa yang research di social science itu: "Aku harus nyebar ke siapa/mana lagi?"

Kuesioner ini susah. Bikinnya aja udah susah, jadi tolong at least hargai sedikit kerja keras kami dengan tidak mengeluh. Kalau memang ngga ada waktu dan ngga mau, yaa gpp. Asal jangan mengeluh seolah-olah kami ngga ada kerjaan lain selain mengganggu kalian dengan deretan pertanyaan.

Terimakasih.

Sincerly,

Mahasiswa Social Science Research

My Personality Type :)

A few years ago I took this personality test, I got ESFP - The "Entertainer" (Extraverted, Sensing, Feeling, Perceiving) and currently it changes to this type ENTP - The "Originator" (Extraverted, Intuition, Thinking, Perceiving). Well, I changed, didn't I? Hahaha :))

More Description of ENTP:

ENTPs are logical, innovative, curious and downright inventive. They see possibilities for improvement everywhere and possess the ability to understand complex concepts. ENTPs are introspective and carefree nonconformists. They often neglect the more common areas of life while pursuing new solutions. ENTPs can be good conversationalists and exciting company.

ENTPs are usually verbally as well as cerebrally quick, and generally  love to argue --both for its own sake, and to show off their often-impressive skills... argument as a sport.
 

ENTPs are idea people. They get excited and enthusiastic about their ideas, and are able to spread their enthusiasm to others. In this way, they get the support that they need to fulfill their visions.

...attention seeking,  experience junky, insensitive, adaptable, not easily offended, messy, carefree, dangerous, fearless, careless...

*Bold ones describe me the most and the Italic ones somewhat describes me :)

New Environment

There are times that I'm bored reading tons of papers in my room, or even in my home. Moreover, I'm kinda addicted to internet. Although there's nothing important to browse, I still hang around wasting my time. And in the end of the day, I feel regret cause I couldn't finish my work.

Then I get out from my home, my comfort zone and from unlimited-fast speed internet, to find a place to read papers and write my work. I found Starbucks nearby with small bathroom inside. Ordered a cup of green tea latte with cinnamon, sat near the corner and start reading. I stayed there for about 3 hours, had my lunch, read paper and finish my work. Yeay! I feel proud of myself. I feel so delighted. And it feels really nice to get my work done. How could I procrastinate my work for all this time? Since then, I'm able to encourage myself more to work :)

In the next week, I went into another Starbucks store, it's one and a half block from the first one and it's a part of a mall. It was a fine chill afternoon, so I decided to try to work outdoor! The weather was really nice. But after two hours, I felt my hands were freezing, needed to pee -the toilet was kinda far and I didn't feel like leaving my stuffs outdoor- and there were a lot of cigarette smoke - oh tell me about it. So I went inside the mall and continue it in the foodcourt, instead.

These two times of working outside were really fun! Refreshed my mind and I can finish my work without an interruption from the internet! LOL

So if you find it hard to concentrate, maybe you can try to find a new place to finish your work.

Good luck! :)

'Udah ada tanggalnya'

Ketika ngomongin pernikahan, selalu aku jawab: "belum ada calonnya" atau "masih belum nemu calonnya". Lalu saat itu dijawab oleh seorang istri ustadz:

"Tenang aja, udah ada tanggal yang ditetapkan oleh Allah kok untuk mba Nisa.. 'Mba Nisa dengan siapa, pada tanggal sekian..' gitu"

Simple. Tapi ngena banget. Mengingatkanku kembali bahwa jodoh itu sudah ada yang atur. I don't need to worry anymore and let Allah handle it. 

To all jomblo (including me :p):

Jadi, udah ngga perlu lagi galau kalo gebetan menjauh, bingung kalo ngga ada yang ngedeketin atau sedih pas gebetan punya pacar baru. Semua udah diatur kok, ngapain dipikirin? mending mikirin sekolahan, kuliah, kerja, hobi baru, keterampilan baru, tambahin wawasan, tambahin teman, dll.

Gunakan waktu berhargamu dengan kegiatan positif! :)

Meilun Science Park

It's located in across from National Taiwan Science Educational Center (click it for reference) and beside Taipei Astronomical Museum (click it for reference).

It's a park, obviously. But there are also some other things related to science -well I don't know what is called. Hopefully the pictures below could explain more :)

It's really a nice place to chill around, for families and friends :)

FAITH :)

I got those words from "International Muslim Exhibition Culture" in my campus on November 2012. Since then, these words keep spinning in my head. It kept telling me that I need to have a bigger faith, especially when it comes to hijab. It really pushes me through my hard times. 

And now I can smile while reading it because I know I just beat my fears down and wear my hijab on :)

I'm so glad I got this message. It really helped me through.

So guys, whatever things you're dealing with, "Let your faith be bigger than your fears".

Taipei Astronomical Museum

It is located just across National Taiwan Science Education Center (click it for reference). You can go here by the same way as you did when you go to Science Museum. Actually when you walk from MRT Jiantan or Shilin, you will pass by Taipei Astronomical Museum first, then you'll walk across the street to go to Science Museum. 

Okay, I'm gonna review briefly about it.

It's actually a really nice place with 4 floor building. But almost all of the explanations are in Mandarin!
Too bad I can't read Mandarin, so I can't enjoy it. I got a little bit disappointed, since it's on tourist travel book, so expected more from it. To be honest, I expect it to be as good as Science Museum. Well it turns out that I got not even half from what I expected.

If you want to go there and can't read Mandarin, just don't expect too much. 

This place is also well-known for its special activity on a Special Occasion, such as New Year or Chinese Moon Festival. 

My new look

I proudly announce that, I'm wearing hijab. You know, a scarf that covers your head. If you ask why and how, well, it's such a long journey. But let me break it down into 5 things or steps that went through my mind before I decided to wear hijab. Hopefully, this post inspires other Muslim women to cover their heads.

1. I'm not ready.

Well, that is my reason every time people ask me why I don't wear hijab. It was until a women came on to me -out of no where- and asked me why, intensively. After I answered it with my classic answer, she said, "if you're about to die, you can't said 'wait, don't take me yet, I'm not ready, I haven't wear hijab', can you? and since wearing hijab is an obligation, you need to wear it, no matter what". Her words struck me pretty bad. My tears started to falls, don't know why. Then, I kept on thinking about it and started to plan. I also thought that if I keep on waiting, until when will I be ready? Will I ever know that I'm ready? I remember it correctly, that woman came on to me on October 2010. And a little while after that, I started to plan forwards.

2. Look Different.

This is the first thing that comes to my mind when I started to think about hijab. How will I look afterwards? How different will I look? How will others react? Will I comfortable with myself? Will I able to wear cute/fashionable clothes anymore? - It was me, long before that women came on to me. After she came, I thought that I can try different ways to wear hijab so that I feel comfortable in it and I still can wear cute/fashionable clothes as long as it is long sleeves and big enough for me to wear. So this problem is solved. Checked! It was around May 2011.

3. Bad Thought.

When other people from other country saw a women with hijab, they thought she is a terrorist. Or in some country, they underestimate Muslim woman. Since I've been to that country and heard someone calling Muslims are terrorist, I'm afraid if I'm being noticeable by them, I don't have any argument to fight back. Back then I was just a kid. I know little about my religion. Since then, I try to seek more knowledge, throw some challenging questions to other Muslims and listen to their answers, just in case later on, it will be my time to answer it. I observe people and realize that there are a few Muslims out there that know little about Islam, even less than me. But they are proud and say it out loud that they are Muslims. Then, I thought that there will never enough knowledge for someone to understand, but you need faith to do what you need to do. As long as you believe in it, Insha Allah, others will understand. I have my faith around Feb 2012.

4. Lost my significant other and 5. Everything else

Sounds silly, I know. But look around, people do care about what's their significant other are thinking or saying. And after a long steps that I went through and faith that I finally have, I still think about what if after I change, I lost him. Because maybe he doesn't like the changes that I've made. After several thoughts, I finally said to myself "I rather lost him, than lost a GOD". I know that this hijab is really important for me, it's an obligation for every Muslim woman and if I don't wear it, Allah may not be with me anymore. And I know that there will be someone out there that accept me with hijab. Almost at the same time, I also thought that I might lose what I have right now. Anything. Such as freedom, or any other opportunities. But then, as I know better, woman will feel free when they wear hijab, there will be no guy looking at them with 'that' look. And, if you can't get a good opportunity by wearing hijab, then it's not good enough. Nothing comes good from someone who can't respect our religion. And remember that Allah will give you even better opportunity if you still wear your hijab. I brace myself to move forward around March 2013.

Then, I just wait and getting ready for it.

Why not wearing it directly? Well, I'm not a big fan of 'suddenly', especially, not for this big changing in my life and myself. Even more, from March-July, it was oh-super-hectic-days for me, busy preparing my thesis and all of the documents for PhD admission. I don't think I have a little room to think about this changing. Because you know, you can't just suddenly wear hijab as you like it - at least, not for me. I need to think how will I wear it and what kinds of materials that I'm comfortable with. I need to prepare every tiny details, so that when I change, I don't feel like a stranger with myself. So I decided to wear it around August when things are settled.

So here I am, wearing hijab, proudly, since August 26th.

In 2012, I experienced a lot of unique things or reminders - I would say, which makes me feel uneasy and rush the process of wearing hijab. (1) Around January, out of a sudden, my mom's friend asked me when will I wear hijab. (2) On March, a stranger thought that I'm Christian because I don't wear hijab. (3) Around June-July, my mom's staffs asked me, when should I cover my head like my mom. (4) Around July, a stranger that doesn't know if I'm a Muslim or not, ask me why I don't wear hijab. (5) Uncountable nightmares about not wearing hijab and there was one night I woke up from that nightmares and found tears on my eyes.

 

*Despite all my understandings in each step, there's always one legitimate-undeniable facts that I included in my steps: "There's always good things that comes from believe in Allah and woman looks prettier in front of Allah if they cover their body and head, no matter it's a fashionable clothes or not."
 

Practice makes perfect

I believe everyone ever heard those sentence and maybe some of us think that it's just a word. Because sometimes, no matter how hard we've tried, we just can't do it. Moreover, when we see our friends are very good at it, we feel like we are sooo far behind them and we will need such a long time to become like them which will lead us to not wanting to try at all. Well, sometimes it happened to me. One of the examples are: jogging.

I can run pretty fast for 100 - 200m, which called a sprint. But I need to stop and walk if I have to run for more than 200m. And if someone ask me to jog, I can only jog for a few seconds. Weird huh? Don't know why. So I hate to jog, ever since. But recently, I notice that walking and jogging are the easiest exercise. Compared to swimming, you don't have to pack your clothes, shampoo and soap; and the time is quite flexible. You can jog for 15 minutes or even less, if you want to. So it's very easy, and you can do it any time.

So I tried to jog. It was around January and cold. Such a perfect timing to start jogging. And I can only jog for a few seconds, walk and jog again for about an hour. Then I keep on jogging at least once a week.

I realized that I improved! The improvement that I made makes me want to jog more often. I didn't keep a record for some time. But then I realized that I improved A LOT! In July, I was able to jog non-stop for 8 minutes!

Within 6 months, I can jog from a few seconds to 8 minutes! And until now, it keep on increasing, gradually. I feel really amused and proud of myself.
This is the proof that practice does makes perfect! Just wait patiently and see the improvement.

Good luck! :)

Change!

I'm reading papers for my thesis and bored with my room. So I go out of the room and sit beside the window. The sound of a rain and a cool wind breeze throughout the room calms my mind. I feel refresh and ready to continue reading bunch of papers.

Go and change something! 

Just to feel new again and to feel the positive energy come rushing into you. 

Indonesia itu negara yang beragama.. bukan negara Islam.

Disini saya mencoba mengingatkan kembali kepada pihak-pihak yang belum tau, atau mungkin lupa. "Indonesia itu negara yang beragama, yang mayoritasnya itu beragama Islam, bukan negara Islam". Saya masih inget pelajaran PPKN dulu pas SD: di Indonesia, ada 5 agama yang besar, yaitu: Islam, Kristen (Katolik & Protestan), Budha, dan Hindu. Jadi, bukan hanya Islam saja yang ada di Indonesia. Sepakat?

Oke, sebelum dimulai, perlu diketahui kalau saya ini juga beragama Islam. Dan disini saya tidak akan membahas isi dari peraturan Islam - apalagi membahas Al-Quran dan Hadits. Saya nulis ini juga tidak ada pengaruh atau maksud dan tujuan tertentu, purely karena ingin menuliskan pendapat pribadi.

Jadi, sepakat kan yah, di Indonesia ada beberapa agama-agama lainnya?

Lalu, mengapa larangan-larangan dan peraturan-peraturan Islam harus dibawa ke level negara?
Mengapa pada akhirnya negara membuat peraturan ini-itu dan menolak kegiatan ini-itu, atas nama Islam?

Untuk mendapatkannya, beberapa pihak harus berkoar-koar di segala media, panas-panasan protes sana-sini. Tapi buat apa?

Buat apa mereka cape-cape melakukan itu semua?

Saya yakin, kalau mereka ngomong itu di mesjid, di perkumpulan orang-orang Muslim atau di pengajian-pengajian, itu akan jauh lebih efektif.

Sepengetahuan saya, target dari beberapa pihak tersebut adalah orang Muslim. Mereka ingin orang Muslim ingat pada larangan dan peraturan Islam. Saya setuju sekali dengan niat baik ini. Lalu, mengapa mereka harus mengatakannya di depan orang lain, yang bukan targetnya? Untuk apa mereka mendapatkan perhatian dari orang diluar target?

Didalam marketing, suatu produk tidak akan dapat dipasarkan kepada seluruh kalangan, oleh karena itu, marketer perlu melakukan targeting, yaitu menargetkan siapa saja konsumen yang akan dituju. Saya ambil contoh iklan kondom, yang jelas-jelas ini untuk konsumsi orang dewasa. Dan iklan ini pasti ditayangkan di TV larut malam, atau bahkan tengah malam. Karena marketer mau approach orang dewasa, yang masih terbangun pada jam segitu.

Ada yang pernah lihat iklan itu disela-sela film kartun di hari minggu? Ngga ada kan.

Karena anak-anak itu bukan target mereka, buat apa mereka buang biaya dan tenaga menjaring yang bukan targetnya?

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Lalu, kalau negara ikut andil dalam hal ini, sampai dibuat peraturan negara atau negara menolak suatu kegiatan, apa yang didapatkan oleh orang Indonesia lainnya, yang non-Muslim? Apa untungnya untuk mereka?

Pernah terfikir perasaan mereka?

Coba kalau keadaannya dibalik. Bayangkan seorang Muslim tinggal di negara yang minioritas Muslim. Lalu dibuat peraturan yang mengharuskan seorang Muslim memakai pakaian ini, melakukan ini-itu, dan sebagainya. Bagaimana perasaannya?

Saat ini saya tinggal di negara yang minioritas Muslim. Tetapi perlakuan dari orang lokal dan International yang agamanya berbeda, itu sangat baik. Bahkan mereka sangat menghormati dan curious, ingin tau Islam lebih jauh. 

Saya yakin, semua orang ingin keyakinannya itu dihargai. Dan bukankah Indonesia juga berslogan "Bhineka Tunggal Ika"? yang artinya, berbeda-beda tapi tetap satu. Bukan menyamakan Indonesia.

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Ada yang bilang alasannya: "nanti orang lain selain Muslim akan menggoda Iman orang Muslim".

Justru itu adalah cobaan. Setiap manusia pasti mengalami cobaan dan musibah di segala aspek, bahkan di kehidupan sehari-hari.

Saya ilustrasikan Iman sebagai ulangan. Seorang anak gagal di ulangan pertama, lalu ia bekerja keras, belajar tiap hari, hingga ulangan keduanya mendapatkan hasil maksimal. Anak tersebut tidak pernah tau kalau ia memiliki kekuatan untuk bangkit dan berjuang, kalau ia tidak pernah gagal. Got the point?

Jadi godaan dari orang lain selain Muslim itu tidak bisa dijadikan alasan. Ada lagi alasan yang lain?

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Disini saya hanya ingin menyadarkan kembali bahwa masyarakat Indonesia itu berbeda-beda, particularly, agamanya dan kita perlu menghormati satu sama lain. Jangan melakukan sesuatu yang merugikan orang lain, hanya demi kepentingan kelompok. Sebelum bertindak, coba dipikirkan apa untungnya buat kita kalau orang lain tau, dan apa dampaknya untuk mereka. Walaupun yang dilakukan itu adalah yang terbaik, tetapi itu hanya terbaik untuk kelompok. Orang lain diluar kelompok tidak akan peduli dengan hal itu. Lalu mengapa tetap juga melakukan sesuatu kepada audience yang tidak peduli?

Thank you viewers :)

Besides writing my own blog, I also read others. Some of their writing really inspires me, or motivates me in such a way. But then, I didn't realized that there's someone who really read my blog. I thought my blog only pops up when someone search specific words, and they close it right away after they found out that this is not the one they've been looking for.

After a while, I learnt from the stats that some of them are really reading it and the stats are keep increasing from time to time. It really is a surprise for me. My friends that knew this blog also commented that I have a really nice writing and inspiring story.

I feel so glad that someone is inspired or at least they enjoy reading it. It motivates me to keep on writing. 

Although blogging is just another way to share my days, but knowing that people are reading it, I'm thrilled.

Thank you for anyone who reads it :)

Complicated

Aku terlalu sombong.
Terlalu yakin bahwa aku bisa melewatinya.
Bahwa ini sama dengan yang lainnya.
That I'll be fine and go on.

Tidak pernah sekalipun terbesit dalam pikiranku bahwa aku tidak bisa.
Karena kondisinya akan selalu mendukungku untuk melewatinya, pikirku.

Tapi aku lupa.
Lupa bahwa tidak ada yang tidak mungkin di dunia ini.
Everything's possible.

Ternyata kondisinya mengagetkan.
Kondisinya sangat tidak mendukung.
Kondisinya sangat complicated.

Karena aku tidak pernah memikirkan skenario ini, aku tidak siap.
No back up plans.
I screwed up.

Well, I realized, nothing is ever too late to try.

Aku mencoba untuk sadar.
Dan perlahan melepasnya.

One thing I believe in is that "The storm will eventually pass" and I'll be stronger than ever.