i cried a lot these days! even too much!
there are so many sad things happened.
1. on monday, my very rare questionare which i only got 3 - are missing! dont kno where it went. i've been circling around searching it, even until 3 times..but nothing.
2. on wednesday, my lovely iPod is gone! eventho its not that expansive, but i had it for like 4 years and its been like a part of me. And i just felt so stupid and dissapointed to myself because i cant protect my valuable things.
at the same time, my mom's granma die :(. which caused my granma go to her hometown. and who's left? only me and my lil brother. i dont have anyone to turn to. i got so lovely friends, but for this kinda thing, my parents always have their best way to calm me down. and not even one of them are here.
3. on thursday, my data for thesis are not valid and reliable! this is the second time i tried it. The first one is not valid because the range of the scale, i guess. So i changed it into a 5 likert scale, and guess what? same result! i just cant hold my tears this time. im just so scared that i couldnt find a way out, and become a failure. i do not want it to happen, but i really dont have any clue to solve it. i just hope something or someone that really good could help me to get through all this.
these are all happened in one week. these are too much for me. i could barely handle it. i feel like giving up, somehow..but the good thing is, the other part of me wouldnt let it happen. im clueless. im lost. dont kno where to go. i felt lonely.
oh God, my dear lovely and helpful God, please please help me to find a way out, to get through all this, to finish my thesis and to make my parents proud. Amiin :)
